Tomorrow is coming closer

I just want to go to bed and when I wake up have it all over with. Last night I didn't want to go to bed because I didn't want today to come. No more eating for a while. My last meal consisted of salad, mashed potatoes with lots of butter and salmon with homemade lemon meringue pie for dessert. It was yummy. Today I get to have consomme, apple juice, water, power aid....you get the picture. They told me I won't have anything even to drink for a couple of days. I guess everything I need will go through my IV, I just hope I don't have to deal with hunger pains, maybe they'll keep me drugged enough I won't know I'm hungry. I keep trying to imagine what the change I am about to experience is going to be like. I can't imagine how I will feel. I know pain, so I am not afraid of that, but I am afraid of what I don't know. I know a lot of people live with a colostomy, I just need to find a way to deal with the change in lifestyle.

1 day closer

I've been a little on edge today, a little pre-occupied a lot on my mind, and a lot I am trying to put out of my mind. I had to go on line to see what a colostomy looks like.....not what I expected to say the least. I did a lot of surfing and reading and watching videos. Tomorrow is my pre-assessment appointment in Halifax, they'll be doing blood work and a lot of paper work. Probably a teaching on how to care for the colostomy as well. They said I'll be there 3-4 hours. I just want this all over with. I can't image what it'll be like on Thursday for me, I can barely focus now.
I did spend some time this morning preparing for my Conquerall group gathering on Monday night. I won't be able to be there so I got everything together and passed it over to Angie and Nancy to teach for me. They are quite capable of figuring it out without me and hopefully next month I'll be able to be there. Here is a picture of the layout I came up with:

I used CTMH "wings" paper and the SOTM from January and February, unfortunately I wasn't very creative today. Maybe I'll come up with something on Wednesday or Thursday.

Happy Friday

One week from today I'll already be in surgery. They want me there for 6am and surgery at 7:30am, that means I have to leave at 4am from home as long as the roads are good, if they are bad we'll need to leave earlier. I am trying to cross a lot of things off my list between now and then. I am doing the mini album class here tomorrow, I have 5 people coming, maybe 6, so that will be fun. I am making plans for the crop in March and I have 2 SOTM groups, well technically only one running right now but I have to prepare for the second one to start in March or maybe beginning of April.
I keep trying to imagine what it'll be like after the surgery, I am not obsessing but it's definitely on my mind frequently. I have been keeping fairly busy the past few days and today I am going to head into Bridgewater for some groceries and a few other things that I will need when I am in hospital.
I made some cards yesterday to occupy myself and here they are:

I'm not super happy with these, I had something else in mind but they didn't quite come together the way I planned. I think I have enough Valentine cards for this year now. Here is another card I made with someone in mind for her upcoming birthday:

I used CTMH product for all of these except for the purses, I used a faux suede from SU that I've had for ages. It was one of those things I never wanted to cut on. I'm over that feeling these days, I really want to use what I have as opposed to hoarding.

Liverpool Scrapbook Retreat

I have just confirmed the dates with the Liverpool Best Western and I am happy to say we are booked in for the weekend of March 25^th,26^th and 27^th. Crop begins at 6:30 pm on Friday and runs through until Sunday at 3:00pm.

There is a class offered on Friday evening and on Saturday morning which are included in the crop price of $85, as well as a mini album on Saturday afternoon for an additional $15 if you want to sign up.

There will be a treat on Friday evening, lunch and snacks on Saturday and the hotel offers a lovely breakfast free with your room. Rooms are $89 per night. Please contact me with any questions. I will be unavailable between February 11^th and February 22^nd but I will respond to any emails after the 22^nd that arrive in that time frame.

Hump Day/Ground Hog Day

I don't think any sane minded Ground Hog will venture out today anywhere in this mess! Another 6 weeks it is! I suspect we are in for a lot of snow, no school again today and maybe not tomorrow again.
Not having a great day today, I went back to sleep this morning after listening to the radio to confirm there was no school and when I finally woke up at 9am I felt like crap, I had been having one of those dreams where you try to talk and can't, try to scream and nothing comes out and you try to move and you can't. Needless to say I woke up in a panic. I am just started to feel a little better now.
I need to make a few more cards today and prepare for my SOTM group for this month and next in the next couple of days, before I know I will be on my way to the hospital. I have to spend Tuesday in the hospital for pre-assessment and Thursday.....well....that day will be a complete write off "preparing" myself for surgery.
I had a wonderful surprise the other day, the community, the church community, had a benefit concert at the church with proceeds for me. I was given a very nice amount of money to help with my expenses. It sure did come at the right time, I haven't any income for awhile. Moyal is going to be taking a fair amount of time away from work while I'm in the hospital too, if I know him he'll be in everyday even though I told him he doesn't have to.

So here are the cards I made yesterday:

It's just as easy to make 2 of a card as it is to make one.

This is a picture looking down my driveway right now, you can't really see the snow falling but it is.